Knocked Up — Audra Says She Had “Suicidal Ideations” Before Birth

Knocked Up (Lifetime)

Knocked Up is a new docu-series about three young women who get unexpectedly pregnant after one-night stands. In the series premiere, we meet party girl Audra Nothoff who got pregnant with an old friend who does not want to be involved. Audra wrote on Instagram that she was so shocked to learn that she was pregnant “I threw the pregnancy test across the counter. I was once told by a doctor that I could never have children.”

Audra considered giving the child up for adoption to a family friend, which her family thought was a good idea. But then as Audra writes, ‘I continued to get depressed, they [her family] didn’t want to be around me anymore.” Audra admitted to having “all of these suicidal ideations” which was one of the lowest times in her life. At 32, Audra has decided to raise the child, her son Zane, on her own. Knocked Up is produced by the creators of 16 & Pregnant and Teen Mom. Knocked Up airs Tuesdays at 10pm on Lifetime.

#singlemother #truth #parenting #avoice #takingastand #pregnancy I am writing this as a voice: A voice for other ladies that may be going through the same issue and can relate. A voice for those who don’t yet have a voice. I am going to be very candid with my experience. I am a single woman, not in a committed relationship. I am not married, and do not have a boyfriend. However, due to some recent events last November, I ended up pregnant. When I found out, I was so shocked, I threw the pregnancy test across the counter. I was once told by a doctor that I could never have children, and got pregnant when it was THAT time of the month! How could this have happened?! I told the father of the child the same day I found out, and he was very clear that we were NOT to keep this child. I was in such shock, I had NO idea what to do. What girl dreams of being a single mother- one that was not even in a committed relationship at that? This was never something I planned for myself, never a position I saw myself in. I struggled with this decision for a LONG time. I came to the conclusion that even though I was in my 30’s, this was not the time to have a child. The child deserved a loving mother and father. So that was it- and then IT happened. I am a religious person and believe in power greater than myself, one I like to call God. I had been praying for God to send me a sign- PLEASE LET ME KNOW if I was making the right decision. And right then, the song “Sweet Child of Mine” by Guns and Roses came on my radio. This song was NEVER on the stations I listened to BEFORE then, and has not been on since. I took it as a sign that I needed to keep my baby. It was the “sweet child of mine.” God would be with me through it all. I would never be alone. With his help, I could do this. It was MY time to be a mom. Remember, I was told I could never have children, so why NOW? I wish I could say that that was the end of the story, and a happily ever after immediately followed, but that is just not my reality. I wanted to do what was best for the child. I wanted the child to have two loving and supporting parents, so I decided I was…See below for more

A photo posted by ?Audra? (@audge000) on Feb 2, 2016 at 10:45pm PST

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A photo posted by ?Audra? (@audge000) on Oct 22, 2016 at 4:19pm PDT